I am a lucky man. Depression is my Achilles Heel, but my life support are my friends and family. In my most mentally turbulent days I had a stream of support from loved ones. It meant that I was as protected from myself as I could be. It was vitally important to be protected from myself because, for many weeks, I did not trust myself to be alone. I feared the man I saw in the mirror. The reflection gazing back at me was one of loathing and repugnance. The consequence of such disgust was a desire to self-harm or die. It was vitally important to have a strong, stable and sincere network surrounding me to battle my demons away. It’s unfortunate I still tried to kill myself but I was caught unawares by my own desires on that particular night where darkness (almost) overtook the light.
To celebrate International Women's Day, we have some selected some quotes from some brilliant women, to illustrate what depression feels like.
It could be said that motivation is the cornerstone to the recovery from many types of emotional or mental disorders. Without the motivation to change, to try new things life can seem bleak and without hope. It is my belief that apathy in place of motivation can lead to hopelessness; and that life without hope is hard to manage.
Finally, some welcome news in the world of mental health this month. A task force set up by the National Health Service to investigate services in this underfunded field, is demanding nothing less than their “transformation”. Its most shocking headline finding was that three quarters of people with mental health problems receive no help at all.
Well here we are in February. A year ago I wrote about January depression but I seem to have escaped that this year, possibly because I am practising Mindfulness, but also because I am applying strategies that I write about in this post.